Just Another Day

Facts be known, I hate holidays and “special days” cruel names that hide their lies. I fear them as they approach, and what they might bring. Nightmares come and go, sometimes so real it’s confusing when you wake up, that moment of uncertainty, and then I breathe that day is over. I can’t remember the […]

Rope

There comes a time when it is enough enough of the daily rituals the endless disappointments limitations the end of the rope tired of hanging on it’s time to take a leap back to the surgeons push for any alternatives find the end feet firmly on the ground off the rope and back into the […]

A Son’s Plea

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Relief and Gratitude

This never-ending road has its ups and downs, and the downs can be very difficult to handle. Often I feel like a burden, having to ask for many things. That has changed for me, and though there are times I feel it and probably will in the future, it has to do with changing perspective. […]

Sometimes It’s a Little Too Much

I know I just can’t take anymore hits. I’m a month in to waiting for the next set of tests. A negative result is SO wanted. A positive one will mean more surgery, and a need to test my son. The waiting is painstaking. Spent most of yesterday crying, it came in waves. Just so […]

The Journey Continues

You ever have one of those days that you feel great and someone pops your balloon? That was my day last Friday. I went in for shot 2 of 4 of Lupron thinking that was it, and I was wrong. Not so fast, the doc wanted to see me. She has concerns about my age, […]

2 Years Cancer Free, the Memories I Wish I Didn’t Have

Two years ago as I write this I was in an operating room at Brigham and Women’s Hospital. My team from there and Dana-Farber worked for over 7 hours to first amputate the cancerous part of me, and then to rebuild it. That was the easy part of the journey now that I look back. […]

Mixed Emotions

I have been blogging in my head for days, but not able to put words on the keyboard ’til now. I find myself in a state of mixed emotions. On the one hand I finished the last thing on my “getting my affairs” in order list, finally after two years of feeling like crap I […]

Drug A leads to drug B leads to drug C ……

Well Tuesday sucked for certain, but ended better than other times, maybe that is a good sign. About 7pm I went into spasm and started the emergency protocol, it didn’t take long to realize this was a bad one and I was not able to break it at home. So my roommates loaded me up […]