Can I Ask You For A Favor?

In April 2015 after many consults, three surgeries, many medications, near miss life threats, and painful nerve blocks my Son and some of his “brothers” saw me have one too many spasms. I wish like hell they never saw it. I cry at the thought of the tears and terror in their eyes, in my […]

Right now, let me be that Voice

Sometimes we are on the verge of blossoming into a thousand flowers. But we don’t. We are waiting. We are thinking, ”Maybe tomorrow. I’m quite busy right now doing the same unsatisfying things I have been doing for years. Yep, pretty busy.” Or maybe we are afraid of what will happen if we open up. […]

It Is Not OK

Even me, even me in the beginning when all the candidates came out thought why not a businessman, tired of politicians. Fooled at first; Trump is worse than a politician, he is a politician with an overwhelming need always to be right, and attack anyone who disagrees. How will anything productive be done and what […]

Not Sick, Just Broken

Why do YOU have a port? You look fantastic; YOU must be better. You don’t LOOK sick. Why do you have handicap plates, I SEE you walk. It’s not like you still have active cancer or something, rolls their eyes into the back of their head. Moving on from the “drama queen”. I had cancer […]

Three Years Ago

Three years ago today, I became a survivor. Three years ago today, I walked into a doctor’s office and heard, you have invasive breast cancer. Three years ago today my life ended in a moment as I knew it. Three years ago today everything change and I wouldn’t change a thing about it. Three years […]

Self Respect and Responsibility Reflection

Had an incredibly cleansing moment. Felt good to hold a mirror to a Liar especially when you catch them in their own lies. Screen shots are priceless, friends who send them golden. A true friend looks out for you when your not looking. A Liar makes excuses when faced with evidence. Also not trustworthy. Don’t […]

Welcome !

Welcome and Thank You for wanting to come along this journey with me. I’m Jenny or Jenn, and I am a 2x Cancer Survivor. I had Cervical Cancer in 2005 and then Breast Cancer in 2013. I traveled a road I never wanted to visit, one full of pure terror and destruction. Everything that could […]

New Doc, New Meds, New Treatments, New Hope

The last couple of months have basically been bed rest on top of rest. I did get out of the house a couple of times for something other than “medical”. It can get strange when going out is attached to this md or that one, a treatment, a port flush, more tests, so on and […]


Looking back on the last three years of my life, I find a perspective that leaves me in shock and in away leaving a feeling of stupidity. It is not stupidity; it falls into a sentence said to me by a provider after the diagnosis of cancer. The impact it had was and is immense. […]

The Alchemy of Acceptance: Steve Taylor author

Emptiness can be a bleak vacuum cold and hostile, dark with danger; Or emptiness can be a radiant spaciousness warm and welcoming, soft with stillness – and the only difference between them is acceptance. Any task can seem tedious a chore to rush through as quickly as you can; Or any task may seem rewarding […]