“Rule The World” Walk off this Earth

My latest addiction is a band from Canada named Walk off the Earth. I really love how normal they are, not full of it, but damn amazing talent. One of their original songs, “Rule The World” That is how life has finally become. No one will ever make me feel like a mistake again. This […]

Reflections and Realizations

It’s interesting around this time of year, many people start to reflect. I think being so close to the end of the year is what gets us to sometimes take a peak back. In my home we have a jar with crumpled little papers in it, different colors, different writers, but all the same purpose. […]

Medical Update

Well here is the down and dirty update. 1. My x-rays came back with some issues, nothing that can be fixed. However adding another supplement to try to slow down further damage, like grandmother like grandchild, keep getting diagnosis very much like her, told you guys I was her mini me, lol. So we added […]

Blame and Shame

Sometimes we take blame for things that we do not own. Especially when it comes to family there will be those that can shut you down with a look or a word, make you feel small, worthless, or a ‘thing’. In my case it’s why my son has never been around them; their poison never […]

Complex post-traumatic stress disorder

Complex post-traumatic stress disorder (C-PTSD; also known as complex trauma disorder) is a psychological disorder thought to occur as a result of repetitive, prolonged trauma involving harm or abandonment by a caregiver or other interpersonal relationships with an uneven power dynamic. *Me age started, birth, I was a mistake, told I was the product of […]

I Promise Mom

My Mom and I have both beaten cancer twice, we have also suffered loss that we will morn forever to cancer. When I was 16 years old I went through some bad and rough times, Tori Amos has been my muse since then. She gave me courage. Now in this song I feel their love […]

Honor and Tradition

I am going to try to explain something and I hope it helps some stop hurting others, often without even realizing it. I just can not say nothing and see people around me I love hurt or being hurt myself by unkind comments from those that never learned or where shown the traditions that have […]

Choices

Lighten up and enjoy the moment, nothing is worth more than getting all you can out of what time we have on this rock. Really it goes quickly. For me, it’s time to slow it down and smell the salt air, taste the breeze across a lake. sit on the deck and just listen to […]

Silver Linings Update with a :-)

Despite the physically broken parts for the first time since I was diagnosed with breast cancer, I have seen a reduction in doc visits and medications. I have had provider after provider that didn’t even know what PMPS was never mind how to treat it. Providers who have never been faced with a patient with […]

Hypervigilance and Domestic Abuse

A common finding in a domestic abuse situation is hypervigilance. It’s called fight or flight and is a chemical reaction in your body to stimuli that puts the person in a state of massive fear, like jumping out of an airplane without a parachute. You get stuck there till you believe your risk of harm […]