A New Year, Treat Yourself With Kindness

Going through any journey can be hard, and what is easy for one, can be devastating to another. Personally, becoming more mindful of myself had to come before anything or other people. Within months of my breast cancer diagnosis, I had lost my home, seen the end of what was my life since age 16. […]

“The Patient” Part 2

When you first enter the world of “cancer patient” there is often the circle of “poor you” that forms. The well-meaning phrases of “I am so sorry” fall on your head like bricks. Your mortality breaths hot and heavy on the back of your neck and each soul who treats you with one foot in […]

The Manifesto of the Brave and Brokenhearted by Dr. Brene Brown

Dr. Brene Brown is an amazing writer who changed the concepts of research in mental health and wellbeing. Her works have helped many of my sister and brother warriors against Breast Cancer, Post-Mastectomy Syndrome, and reconstruction errors and failures. These scars never leave. How we persevere them in an other story. For many in my […]

Medical Update

Thanks everyone for all the well wishes and prayers over the past few weeks. I am a medical enigma. Here is the long update oy friggin vey. The docs don’t know why I am extremely distended in my abdomen, by 11 inches around. My left chest and under the arm is also swollen. My chest […]

“The Patient”

I see you running room to room, blood pressure machine on wheels in tow, thermometer tucked in your pocket. You ask the standard questions as you scribble down vital signs on sticky yellow paper. My eyes search for yours, wondering if you see me. Your boss comes in with their white coat and stands so […]

Health Care Access Denied

Recently and I mean on election day, I went to a Medicare specialist to sign up during open enrollment for insurance. I wanted to pay double what I was to get a better policy. I was denied access to the only two plans less than 900 a month in premiums. I was denied because sometimes […]

Taking a Chance

Recently a friend “tagged” me and others in the post they published about domestic abuse and the abused. Each walks their path, and like them, I have come to the point after decades of being able to be public. They said: “Reading the comments on some recent domestic abuse stories, I’m reminded of how difficult […]

Can I Ask You For A Favor?

In April 2015 after many consults, three surgeries, many medications, near miss life threats, and painful nerve blocks my Son and some of his “brothers” saw me have one too many spasms. I wish like hell they never saw it. I cry at the thought of the tears and terror in their eyes, in my […]

Right now, let me be that Voice

Sometimes we are on the verge of blossoming into a thousand flowers. But we don’t. We are waiting. We are thinking, ”Maybe tomorrow. I’m quite busy right now doing the same unsatisfying things I have been doing for years. Yep, pretty busy.” Or maybe we are afraid of what will happen if we open up. […]